Luminosity Wrath

Loneliness and nostalgia had surmounted me totally. In order to get some blank space, i decided to go on a stroll after my dinner at around 8 in evening. A fine evening it was. Whenever I am low on myself, or kind of overpowered by some thought, i take a break and go to the neighbouring park in my campus. I usually prefer night, because it’s soothing, more pleasant and less noisy, which i love the most about it.

I fastened up myself on the top of a rock, around 3 ft in height and have a broad cross section with a slope to ease people in sitting, which was kept over there. Lights all around, gave me a small headache, especially the huge halogen lamps fixed over the auditorium that would even scare the shit out of a demon! All of a sudden, the current went off. There was complete darkness all over except for the moonlight which made the place more soothing than anything imaginable. I looked all around, I could see nothing significant. It was as if, moon was having a special session with me in private, and it was pleasing. I could talk to myself, what did i do, what am i doing, what happened in my life, how do i tackle the further challenges, all of a sudden i could answer all these questions to myself. Strange it was! There was just 2 seconds back, when i was frustrated with all these questions, and it is now, when i am answering myself. I rejoiced all the wonderful limpid incidents that have imbibed in my brain over a period of time, and make me smile even at worst of situations when i remember.

Those 2 minutes of darkness, gave me a lifetime of clarity, ecstasy, joy and essentially, contentment which i was lacking for a long time. We all are potent enough to solve our problems and be what we actually are, but there’s too much of light in our lives. By light i mean, the “usuality” in our lives, the gradual grinding of moral ethics of a life. Every day we enter into an endless reign of competition, unfaithfulness, and discontentment and murder our true identity to live upto the standards set up by the society.

For once in a day, take out atleast 5 minutes and go to your terrace or a place devoid of external disturbances and where you can see the moon. Sit for a while and try talking to yourself. Discuss your problems with yourself and listen to yourself. I guarantee from my personal experience, you can find the perfect answer from yourself and after this you’ll be more content than you were ever before. Mark my words, once you are alone and you start believing yourselves you become the best counsellor for your own good, ever existing in the world.

Mark these immortal words of Swami Vivekananda:-

"We are responsible for what we are, and whatever we wish ourselves to be, we have the power to make ourselves. If what we are now has been the result of our own past actions, it certainly follows that whatever we wish to be in future can be produced by our present actions; so we have to know how to act."